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this is what it feels like to be lonely and okay with it:

1. Like everyone was looking at you. (I felt this once in a while)

2. Like nobody was looking at you. (I felt this a lot)

3. Like you were just about to cry because someone ate all the mayo you were going to use for the tuna casserole for lunch

4. Like you didn't know if you would ever see your cousins again

5. Like you were walking by foot to the river and your only friend was your shadow

6. Like you saw the flowers outside and wondered at their magic

7. Like learning how to stir-fry zuchinni with the help of Mom

8. Like learning how to be a better daughter, sister, and granddaughter and not being so angry all of the time at the world

9. Like sewing and altering old sweaters

10. Like having friends and not being too attached to them like a 5 year old who just found a friend

11. Like being comfortable and happy

12. And understanding that things die

13. Like kind of understanding flowers, sun,sky,moon,birds,fish,animals,soil,water